tsukiko_chan90

I want it to be Christmas I want it to be want it want it want it *jumps around*
I’m done with school, I want Christmas I love Christmas, the tree’s are standing, the presents are bought :P *runs circles*
I will see Aslira again ! And Alice, don’t see her that often anymore. And I want to give presents (and get them to :P)
I’m really busy making a special present for my best friends, (aslira, and alice) They are going to be unique and I really hope they like it. At least, if I’m able to finish it in time >.< I will show them next year :P (2010 o.O )
Omg I’m turning twenty, goodbye teener years :O (ok still got 9 months :P but still)
At least I GOT THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT.

(oh and I hate commercials.)

_pinkfish asked people to fill in the meme, so I did. I hope people like to read it !!!

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It was just me, but he admidded it could be a little weird to me.

But my parrents Suck now.. They keep complaining, now I finnaly got the stupid paper (I got my P about 6 months ago already, but didn't collect is yet) But now they have something diffrent to complain about. And they kind of use frank to get what they want !

-_-

Frank (my BF ) Is acting weird. I've been at his place this weekend (we are always together in the weekend) And most times he comes one time trough the week. Now he forgot that I always work at Thursday eve, he doesn't text me back like he normally does... It takes him ours. And than saying he had looked yesterday and doing it again today ! he texted me around 10 (that he was bored and stuff) , I texted back that I was on the way to the doctor (explain this later) I got an answer about 16... 6 ours later ?? Why didn't he text back right away. O and the morning question was the one about my work.. If I had to work till 6 (18) Like hell he knows I don't work during day when I got school. I always work evenings ! As hell he knows I worked one time at day FOR HIM.
Now I asked him Monday (early in the morning when I left with the train) If he would come an evening. He told me he didn't know. And since than it looks like he is making up excuses not to come.. I don't understand. We have agreed to be fully honest about everything to each other. And now he is acting so weird... Did I do something wrong ??
Or is it me ? Maybe I'm just a drama Queen.

And about the doctor thing. Probably I got a bladder infection.. It hurts...

So had to look up were I left. But well I went to Scheveningen (den haag) And walibi.
Broke my bf nose, got a cat plush and I called him Franky.
Can’t find nice Hello Kitty phone straps  (searched trough Scheveningen, Hengelo and Walibi, just found one type I like a bit but hoped to get the animals types) Have to buy the Me to you bear phone strap back… Stupid thieves.
But well.
Scheveningen !
First day the weather sucked. It was rainy and cold. But I got Franky (bought him on the pier. ) and we made it fun :P just playing around and be dorky like always :P Frank just is a lovely dork.
We went to some cinema with a huge screen surrounding us. Got dizzy by it some times. But is was kind a experience.
Next day the weather was better. We went to madurodam (a miniature town. They even got the place were Frank works !! ) And Franky went on the picture with a lot of buildings, we laughed our ass off. And went to the sea again. We went into the dunes. Played around and dorked around with Franky :P And watched the sunset before we went home.

And Sunday we went to walibi fright night. It was rainy (again) But so worth it. So absolutely !
Especially Alice in horror land it was freaky.

And about his nose. Well it was Friday ? and we were just fooling around a bit, we are both really ticklish and were teasing each other. Suddenly he bend over and hit his nose against my head. We both (and his little brother (witch is older than I am btw :P) heard a loud crack. He didn’t cry but the tears stout in his eyes. But he just got a not really big (like 2 cm diameter ? ) blue spot witch coloured al colours trough time :P
He had some pain on it the day it happened. But after that it just faded to really painful when pushed on it :P (yes I pushed on it ! but he challenged me to ! ) I had a painful head just after it happened for a few hours.

Wiew
(I’m not sadistic)

My mobile phone is stolen ;_; So I f*cked up my exam.. I was totally distracted. Can’t life without that f*cking thing ! I can’t reach my boyfriend without it. Ok I can reach him, but not very well. Only trough the net. And stuff like that takes time, cause we can’t be online all the time !! I’m Lucky he’s here tonight. So I won’t miss him that much. And next week well. He will be here Friday. And we will go to Scheveningen Satherday and Sunday. And Thursday I’ll go to him again. But well I just need a phone, if we didn’t message for 3 ours or so I get itchy and send him a message again.. And my mom always wants to know how I’m doing when I’m at his place. And I need to text my friends…. DAMN !! (oh and I lost my numbers off course… but well I could ask those back again.


HATE HATE HATE
Oh and the f*cking thing was just bought new :( I need it back..
Luckey I placed the miyavi pictures on my computer this weekend.

I want it to be Sunday. I will see my F again :P We will go paintballing tomorrow. With the friends we made in Sweden.
Oke I kind of need to studie, but I don’t care, I hate school. And I can redo them. I almost got enough points anyway.. I just need stupid projects and minor.. The new seconds years don’t need minor it isn’t fair !!!!
Anyway can’t wait to go on my internship. I didn’t tell yet. But I’m moving to Twente (a district in the north of the Netherlands in Overijsel.) I’m going to do my internship there. Close to my Boyfriend. Maybe you can say like o.O what so fast ? But I know he is right. Much better than those stupid kids from my own age dah.. Oke he is like my own age to. I got friends older than he is :P But that’s the problem I think. Boys from 1990 are to immature. I hate that.
And I will go on internship in February by then we are about 8 months together. And you can say there are 5 months between now and then.. You are planning way to fast. But I just fully trust him, trust us. Unlike past relations, were I was said due to them or angry and irritated all the time.
We’re almost 3 months now. And I’m still in love for over 200%

Oke I talk to much about him :P

I’m MAKING MY HAIR BLOND, Oke just one small part :P And I need to wash it now…. Cause I’m going to lose hair if I let in any longer.. But the top is a lot lighter than the lower part..

HELLLOOO

I thought I blog again, I should do it more often tough.
It is quite funny even after meevers I got to hear my hair is awesome… It was really like there was a big sign above my head ---> She is doing it right !
But I took out the extensions and cut it again !! making a picture later one time :P
It’s like Yuji’s new look, (SuG) I just need to dye a part blonde, but my mom doesn’t have time to help me…. And I didn’t had enough time to do it myself. Cause I will do it slow !

*doing doing doing* I got to much energy !!!!
WIEW
Anyway, I bought these absolutely cute muffing cups !! They are like Heart shaped. I actually bought something from silicone. Most times I don’t want them :P but these are cute and actually work better than the cake form my mom bought once.

Now I’m going to try to find the best muffin recipe, From real muffins. Those big ones I used to get at school ;_; those vanilla stuff… And no those aren’t cupcakes !! there is quite a difference Real muffins have more air in it and stuff.
Cup Cakes are cute to decorate.
I hope I can find a nice recipe before 24 & 25 Nov, when I and F go to Scheveningen :D I want to take those :D as kind of surprise from my side, cause he is paying.

He is soooo cute :D I don’t want something different anymore :P
I mean, quys from Twente (TUKKERS :P) Got real cute accents. And he is a real athletic, Race cycling, spinning, ect. So he has a nice body !! Strong legs nice belly, and not to much fake big bah disgusting muscles.. Just beautiful and sexy, and no hair ! I could recognize my F just by his legs when he came of the stairs in his tight cycling pants :P Of course the great ass :P He actually has an ass. Most man don’t, I like a nice ass on a man :P
And most important !! He likes J-rock, and he listens the GazettE (after I showed him but he does !) Just need to make sure he gets better hair and better clothing :P Although he has nice taste of clothing, cause I like most stuff he buys when I’m with him.. Like the Panda Hoody :P I think he just needs some positive motivation that it isn’t weard but cute and nice to walk around with animal hoody’s and stuff :P

Yay, it was nice to see a lot of old faces again. And meet some new !!! I met _pinkfish In real !! I was looking for her, but didn’t saw her, one moment I just turned around, and I was like I recognize that face ! it has to be her !
I bought to much fries, I asked for 6 persons (we were with 6 and some others were with us) but It was too much for 8 pers XD We ate just 1/3 of it :P but it was just 6 euro and someone else paid 3 of it :P (I didn’t want her to but she insisted but bought her a drink later so she still paid les :P
Meev Rocked like hell. He started bad tough.. I was a bit disappointed, I didn’t recognized the songs. But when we went back I could drink some, and the good songs started !! and we danced and had a lot of fun.
I just couldn’t head bang to much cause I already did that Thursday, and my neck still hurts from that… And I got dizzy quite fast. I guess due to lack of fluid.

There was a problem on a station we had to pass.. So It took me about 2 hours more to get there than planned !! I HATE NS. We had to get halfway the country to get to Utrecht.

I was so bouncy and hypered up afterwards. We walked back to the train station and C was hypered op and bouncy too. So she had her mobile turned on and we sang alice nine and Gazette out loud on the streets and in the train station !! God I laughed my ass of XD It was so much fun. And so terrible off XD

Ok now some days back. My BF stayed here the whole weak <3 He shaved everything lol ! It’s so cute, no hair on chest, belly or legs anymore !! I like that ! (and I dislike chest and belly hair a lot so :P)
But the bed was cold last night… Cause he was here for 6 nights.. And I missed him ;_; So I couldn’t get to sleep easy.
He is just the cutest :P I got a douglas (perfume store) gift card. And we choose a perfume together :P I sprayed it on and he kept smelling :P He liked it that much lol. I had a nice week
But I still hate school

Anyway I’m getting to bed…

Night night.

Chatting with F don't want to go to work tomorrow don't want to go sleeping
Today was great !! I love Aslira/Mitsuko-chan/Kana ect :P So mutch. And J is so nice tooooo !
Can't wait till miyavi already, it is just going to be a lot of fun !!
I got some really awsome be-lated birthday presents on this be-lated birthday party.
I got this wobbly head thing.. My parents actually liked it :P They started playing with it. Covering the solar pannels, and when it got dark shining light on them :P
We had this huge Ice bowls :D My treat !


Whaaa It was much.. I was stuffed for the rest of the day. Only a bit tursty :P I didn't finish evening meal.. And after that my parents wanted ICE ! >.<

And I got this cute me to you bear !! I finally have one !! I love them sooo much much much.. But never got one. But you have to get those as a present.. It's dull to buy them yourself.. And to ask for them to.. BUT I GOT ONE *LOVE*




The wobbly thing wobbles when I put the flash of my mobile camera on it while filming :P

Gawd he is sooo cute <3
i went shopping with my bf today, it was realy great fun. It's nice to shop with/for him.
In one of the first shops they had all. These cute and funny shirts. At one moment he started looking at this awsome cute hoodey with a panda on it ^_^ he said he liked it. But i never tought he would actually like it to really wear it. As in just thinking the print is funny. But he really liked it a lot an bought it ! Awwww it's so cute ! I didn't figure him as the type to buy a panda hoody.
And he got a nice jeans a blue blouse wich really matched his eyes, and a nice jacket he didn't like at first but really liked it once wearing it :D
<3

Well didn’t update for a while..
Oke F = Boyfriend. The guy I met at my vacation. He is absolutely great !!! I love him so much.
He is tall and blonde, quite skinny, hard strong pretty belly :P. Strong legs cause he practice cycle racing. He is a sport instructor (like absolutely hot :P) He is 24 years old. And just ultra nice.
He likes my music, were quite on the same line about a lot of stuff and we complete each other. I have good fashion sense, a big ego. And he is able to keep me calm when needed :P
Get me out of stress and stuff.
We did so many nice things. And I love how more mature he is, and how more mature our relation is. We can talk about everything. Share everything. I can just tell him how I feel. Without feeling odd about it.
This is the first time a relation feels really 100% right

I hate school :P well I’m going quite well actually :P but still. Got to talk with F about internship… Cause I would love to go international.. But to miss him..
I hate my work even more. But I filled in two applications for other jobs, one in a restaurant, other on the airport (in the shop&fly store) Hoping I get the job with better work days… less on Saturday/ Sunday. More in the start of the week. Instead of Friday.
I want to be more flexible..

Got my birthday was Tuesday. It was weird. The cat of my brother fell of his balcony. It was hurt so the tree of us went to the vet wit her. (me my bf and my brother, cause the box was at our home so my and my bf brought it. ) The vet told us it wasn’t bad so we brought the cat home. Finished my birthday, without cake cause we were stuffed with pancakes !
I got : A camera stand and a vest from my parents.
The Wii Game rayman raving rabbits from my youngest brother
And a weekend scheveningen from my Boyfriend.. (he’s so romantic !!)
My oldest brother (from the cat) didn’t have a present 
And I’m sick this weak.. My trout was infected. It hurt a lot till yesterday. And started to lose my voice after it. >.<

And my boss is stupid. I wanted to ask free for sep 19th, celebrate my birthday with two friends and organise the reunion from our vacation on Sunday. I get at my work and the rooster for that weak isn’t on the board. So I fill in the form to ask for days off. Get in the office part and see a rooster with me planned on the Saturday and the Sunday !!! While I said like a 1000 times not both days in the weekend cause that’s my only free time.. Laura wants that and she never gets it weird people.

I want to go back ;_; Sweden was great.. I miss the evening fun, I miss the laughter I even miss the pain in my back and legs…. I’m just glad there are no mosquito’s over here..

I will make some points :
* arriving at houten,.. Empty
* leaving very late, a lot of people and a lot of girls but… None of our vacation
* long trip, met some of our vacation but spend time with the others.
* slept a bit in the bus
* Arriving, and lunch, no-one is hungry
* other buss arrived to !! waiting in the sun, lying or standing.. Our asses are still painful from the bus
* packing and leaving in the canoe !
* we have to cross some land.. But it’s real muddy, loosing shoe’s
* we sleep on a island this night.
* not enough food ! one of the guides didn’t know she had to take the box to >.<
* Fun around the campfire, till sun set.
* Elbows and kicking to the head… bivouac was a bit to small
* returning by canoe

* rising early, getting ready for a long trip ! (30 km walking)
* crossing water over fallen tree’s, walking trough water till your knee’s it was hard ! but worth the trip
* Dining with the boys
* teaching them to play card games, (were did friend nr 3 go ?)

• Bad news, one of the boys is leaving (friend nr3) He got bad news from home last evening.
• Building a raft…. And Dieing of the cold
• Walking on flip flop over rocks >.< Glad F stayed behind me
• Current in the River was too strong, so we couldn’t cross it.
• Back on the flip flops to the Raft.
• Back at the camping, changing into dry clothes and lunch
• Still leaving for the hike
• Building a dam to cross a small river
• Hugging cows *failure of the day, they didn’t like me >.<*
• Troll road, lol.
• Dinner : pitipanna something Swedish, tasted nice
• There is something cute about F

* biking to Mora 80 KM back and forth, A sunny day !
* finally ! Swedish money !
* almost paid 40 euro for a sandwich.
* pink pyjama pants for L , and ice cream :D
* Back trip was heavy, L felt bad  Me and M talked a lot, told here about my little crush on F
* we made it ! In a quite short time notice !
* making dinner, everybody liked it a lot :D
* M is a little irritating, but she coupled me with F

• Swamp hike, not that interesting.
• O lot of rain the evening, crawling closer and closer to F
• Leaving as last, a lot of hard rain >.<
• And F looks afraid to kiss o.O

*Already the last day of activity, leaving for mountain biking, and sun !
* F hangs around me, I send him away, I know he wants and can go a lot faster
* My brother has the time of his life racing with F on the bikes.
* last activity driving a All-terrain vehicle, Going with D (friend of F) F, The weird male guide A and an other (not interesting) girl
* Going really hard
* Stable as a bears mother :P
* F sneaking up on me with the camera (haven’t seen the pics yet)
* Evening BBQ (F saying that he isn’t good at kissing >.<)
* a bottle of rosé (whine)
* M couldn’t take the alcohol, and got sick
* After taking care of M, crawling together with F again.
* everybody left for bed, but F didn’t let me go :P had some private time together. (and he isn’t a bad kisser :P)

• Last day at the camping, a sad rainy day..
• Getting ready to leave
• Eating in the restaurant and hanging around there.
• Watching the wild water at the power dam.
• Bus is really late.
• Finally leaving, (sitting next to F)
• A lot of candy ! a lot of fun and laughing
• Not being able to find a good pose to sleep
• Hard wind at the boat.
• Saying goodbye at houten (almost cried)
• F promised to call

Today I talked with him on msn, he wants to come this weak. Bit scary to let him meat my parents rater not >.< maybe try to take a day my mom has to work…

till Sweden.. I'm getting nervouse. Today it was my last day of work. Now I just need to survive two days of school.
So glad I'm done with work... That Idiotic dennis guy mailed me a week ago.. Asking If he could take me out.... LIKE NO WAY ASS
He really thiks he actually makes a change ?? He is Fugly....... He smokes... Is Ugly like really ugly.. He blows...(smoking weed) He stinks... and not just a bit.. Like really a lot !
O and he hoped to get a responce.. Like no way he is getting that till at least 9 august. :P I have vacation till then :P
And my bos... Gheess that woman is crazy !! Nuthead !
She made a fight with me *with f*cking me* friday a week ago.
I went to my best friend.. And took the train this way I would be at my work around 5 to 6. (had to start at six)
At 5 to 6 I was at work (someone let me in). I changed. Got to the toilet.. When I walked up to the pay desk (have to cros the store for it) I got a text message from my mom. Where are you your work called... It was just 3 past 6 at that moment.
So When I came at the front I said to her. I just sait on the toilet.
After that she came up to me shouting That she didn't accept such a tone from my. I wass like WHAT. I just tell you I was on the toilet... I was in at 5 to 6 it isn't even 5 past 6 ...
And she wass all like but you werent there blah balh blah. I just asked why she tought she needed to call home and not my mobile. She said it didn't work (LIER it always f*cking works... And I just got a copple of text messages no way it isn't working) And I told her that I think she acts like not trusting me this way.. Cause People are more often late about a minute or 2. And she went you always come in trought the front (so not ! I often go by bike and then I enter trought the back.. and next to that people don't always notice me entering eather)
She is just a F*cking maroon... And I'm so going to tell her. After I found a diffrent yob...

(sorry for using dutch.. But English people never comment anyway And I'm angry)

F*ck school en F*ck leraren, ik moet nu een voorbereiding maken voor Chemie terwijl ik dat kut examen eigenlijk gewoon gehaald had als die lul van een beoordeler gewoon het beoordelings formulier had gebruikt zoals het F*cking hoord (ja sorry voor het schelden)
Want er werden 3 onderdelen beoordeeld. Ik had een G een V en een O. Bij elke andere toets mag je een O hebben als je er een G tegenover hebt staan. Dus zou ik hierbij gewoon geslaagt zijn . Maar nee. Meneertje ik wil graag lullig zijn stopt er een overal cijver bij..(waarom beoordeel je dan F*cking de onderdelen als toch alleen dat laatste telt) En ik moet nu dus nog beginnen aan de voorbereiding van morgen ochtend. WANT
Ik moest ook een heel f*cking verslag en een Proces verslag (ja echt zo ongelovelijk nutteloos) Schrijven voor de stomme minor van me. En ik word echt pis nijdig als ik er dadelijk niet van af ben. Dan ga ik die beatle die denkt een leraar te zijn zo erg kaal scheren dat wil hij niet weten !

En dan nog die klere collega van mij ik kan hem wel de nek omdraaien en ja het is weer de zelfde. Kleine update en het verhaal
Vorig jaar. Rond mei ofzo. Heeft hij me mee uit gevraagt omdat hij me zo speciaal vond en het gevoel had me niet te kunnen laten lopen. Ik heb toen gezecht dat ik dat niet wilde omdat ik hem niet het gevoel wilde geven dat er meer van zou kunnen komen. Nog geen maand later kreeg hij daarna een relatie met een nieuwe collega. Zij was helemaal hoteldebotel en ik blij van hem af te zijn. Nou daarbij had ik het dus mis. Was helemaal niet van hem af. Die hele relatie was fake van alle kanten. En hij zat nog steeds achter mij aan. Om niet goed van te worden..
Nu is die relatie op een einde gekomen. En je raad het al.. Hij zit nu weer voor de 100% achter me aan. Staat te zwijmelen bij de service balie. Komt de hele tijd bij me staan (en hij stinkt !!!! echt Deo zou hem goed doen. Of een douche..... Bah) en hij loopt tegen iedereen te verkondigen hoe leuk hij mij wel niet vind (deed hij vorig jaar ook al en nu dus weer) Hij zegt gewoon tegen collega's dat hij mij "wel zou willen doen" en dat hij mijn kont zo mooi vind en. Ik wist wel dat hij gewoon nog achter me aan zat. Maar nou kwam een nieuwe collega naar me toe van ooohhh jaaah Dennis vind jou zo leuk dat verteld hij de hele tijd. Dus toen vroeg ik aan iemand van zijn afdeling en die zegt dat hij het non stop over mij heeft........ echt BAH

I bit in a aple, and when I looked at in in the middle of the stupid thing was a huge funges thing..... DISGUSTINg.... F*ck*f*ck*f*ck. I want to vomit.. I just ate that...

Just a second ago I wanted to kill something/someone really badley just because I hate school and I'm really done with it. I NEED vacation..

But Then I turned on Vidoll their new PV It's Adorible and sounds great.. Just made me so happy !!!!
listen to it !! really I mean it DO. It's so wonderfull. Makes me happy and feel good. (jumpes around !! )


Can not stop listening !! !

BTW what the hell is Ditzy. It sounds funny so I use it !

I finally got them *dance* the internet site had discount ! from 89.- to 49,90 ! So I bought them !! And they are in !! they look so awsome.. LOVE

School was really stupid today. The test was way to long to finish... No one ditd. It wasn't that really hard eather. Just stupid !! really stupid.. Like questions multiple choise. And then explain.. When I was like.. The book sais so.
Stupid

Don't want to go to school tomorrow eather. I'm done with it. I need vacation !!

And can't stop thinking of food !

some new pictures of me

With a flower of the same colour :P


And a clear vieuw of the hair !!



Well last post was a quicky.
so I tell you my story of yesterday.
I went to the hairdresser at ten to 9. Arrived there 9:30
First they started dyeing.
After that a girl started for the extensions. She and the *teacher* drooled over my drawing. After that a boy came watching with us and he drooled over it to (it wasn't that good eather :S)
But well. The girl started doing the extensions. But when it was half past twelfe she had to leave for school. So the boy continuut. He was a bit clumsey. Dropping stuff all the time XD but he was told doing well. So I guess he didn't make mistakes in my hair :P
But he had to wash other costemmers all the time.. I think that was kind of weird. Other people painted the hair. Then he had to wash them. And then other people cut the hair again...
It looked terrible at first. All those long hairs bit wavie. I looked like a witch or something like that.
When he was done placing the extensions he went Straightening it. And that made it look a lot better already.
And than the *teacher* cut my hair. And she styled it :D She combed it back. And than made it spikey. Looked really cool. But than I went outsite (wanted to go walking trought the city cause my brother wasn't home yet and he lives close to the city and I would eat at his place)
But it started to storm !!! So I fled in to the library. Read some books till the storm calmed down. But it didn't stop raining so my hair wasn't that spikey anymore when I got at my bro's place :P

But both my brothers like it (mirical !!) that is nice :D

I spend about whole my day at the hair dresser.




And if you want to see the length (don't pay attention to the way I look :P)

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